Selfish thoughts.
I’m just another ordinary guy. I don’t have parents and I wish I had my parents. I really mean it. And sometimes,when someone talks about parents or anything,noone knows what’s happening inside me. They will never know and i really wish someone could feel it. Coming to school without cash,going out with empty pocket,having such a fucked up life.. It’s more than that. I really wish I had the best in life sometimes. I am having a hard time. It’s like a path that leads nowhere. Its a circle. I really get nowhere but to where I start. A family,that doesn’t care,a girlfriend,who gives me problems every night and day without fail and I really don’t know why I still stay with her,friends,who only think that I’m just like all of them,when I’m really dying to have the best of my life. It’s difficult. Imagine,going to school and having your friends call you stupid and make fun of anything you do,Imagine,rushing to meet your girlfriend after school and leaving your friends while all she says is that she wants to go home,imagine,coming home hungry and there’s literally nothing at home. I really don’t deserve this. I don’t know what I’m doing these days. I’m going crazy. It’s difficult to change. My temper is rising. I’m getting violent. Boone has time for me. Quality time. Someone to confide with as your parent,someone to give you the love your parents didn’t as your girlfriend,someone to encourage you in school and do everything to get out ASAP as friends. I wish I had the best of all worlds. I wish I had a supportive girlfriend. Really.
